TO BE(LIVE) OR NOT TO BE(LEAVE)!!!!!!

Off late i have taken a fancy to spirituality...... oh my God!!!  yes truly.. 

well u see an empty mind is a devil's workshop.....

but in my case i am trying/wanting to understand the other phenomenon "GOD".....

brave heart, me.

Well, the more you try to understand the more complicated it gets.....

all the things that we know/knew, and now, because of our new found intelligence, question, only help to serve one purpose.... 

makes our understanding more un-understood!!!!

Confused???? lets try and make it simpler..

All these years without thinking, without questioning, without doubting, i believed.

now when i felt that i should understand.... the questions don't have satisfying answers!!!! 

'LOVE' is a very convenient tag we have given, to the most selfish emotion....

when we say "I am in Love"... everything is expected to be forgiven, forgotten, accepted and resolved.

Similarly i feel we take refuge in "GOD"... 

when we say there is a greater, more superior power, controlling everything that happens to us or everything that we do, 

Ahhh... the immediate relief of clearly absolving ourselves from our lives!!!!!! 

Wait let me try and tie up the two things better,

like love, i feel, belief is also a "safety net" a "security blanket"... 

sorry cannot elaborate ... this is a debate!

Anyway there are two ways of looking at this , 

either you simply fear what you don't understand..... and live

or you believe that "ignorance is bliss" and leave....

What makes sense to me today, is that the best way "to be" is simply... 

"just be...."

one step at a time!!!!!

p.s. thank God for small mercy's!!!!!!

psst.... me and my thinking mind!!!!!